2003-11-04
and away they go
:: elliot ::
things were coming around. then it took a u-turn and headed elsewhere. things being good, that is.
but now, all there is is stress.
you cannot fix people, you cannot make them happy, you cannot make them feel better. i cannot do anything. its not up to me, and i know that, and i've always known that and i hate it. i hate it. and i still hate it. its not fair. for me, or for him.
my therapist says i should quit smoking and stop drinking caffine.
well, i've stopped the caffine drinking for quite awhile, other than the occasional cup of coffee or expresso, which will now be decaf, but the cigarette thing is going to take awhile. i have been cutting down for awhile now, but lately, it hasn't been so successful.
at this point, i look forward to the nicotine breaks at work, and its just relaxing.
i need relaxing. i need warm fuzzy softness.
lunaadored at 5:54 p.m.